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Turn-About Ranch
01:07
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Not today - i'm kind of sick and tired of forcing a smile,
And i'm sure you are too
Even though I might look totally out of it, i'm not gonna put a fork in a plug socket,
And i'm not gonna take a bath with a radio - just so you know.
Sometimes I just wanna stay inside,
Close the curtains i'm trying to hide,
I'm feeling fine, I'm just not feeling up to real life.
I don't feel sad today, I'm just kind of feeling ok.
I'm not forcing a smile, I won't live my life in denial.
Is that OK?
Cos I'm OK.
Is that OK?
Cos i'm OK.
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Everything Is Broken
04:07
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Everything is broken, but i'm not.
I'm as surprised as you i've not given up,
Cos everything i had that makes me me has disappeared
I've been in bed about a week, despite the fact that i can't sleep and i don't plan on getting up today
So send me a message, tell me i'll be fine
I'll leave it on read and reply when i've got time
So send me a message, tell me not to quit
You gotta get over it
Everything is broken, but i'm not
So let's give it another shot
So let me just try to put these broken pieces back together
With no guidelines whatsoever
When you say that you know but refuse to let go
Don't expect me to keep hanging on
So send me a message, tell me i'll be fine
I'll leave it on read and reply when i've got time
So send me a message, tell me not to quit
You gotta get over it
Everything is broken, but i'm not
So let's give it another shot
Sometimes i wonder if it's worth constantly waiting for the worst
Cos I just seem to destroy everything
Everything is broken, but i'm not
So let's give it another shot
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Panic
04:28
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I think i've figured out by now
There's better ways of calming down
Than drinking coffee after dark,
I can't hear my thoughts over my heart
And I can't explain why this is happening again
But i can't seem to maintain any control over my brain
I can't get anything done, maybe i'll block out the sun
Find things to alphabetise, inspect the bags under my eyes
I'll wonder when things went wrong, dismiss things one by one
I can't get anything done
So i'll wait til the panic sinks in,
The water's rising, the pressure's building
I can't focus on anything until my heart slows
Just keep on breathing in and out
Let's stop and start this over
And write out a list of things to do today
Then use it for an aeroplane and fly right out the window
I guess i'll try again another day, sink further into disarray
I can't get out of my head so i'll just get back into bed
With airplane mode as my friend waiting for this year to end
And i should practise what i preach, but all that seems so out of reach
I just can't get anything done
So i'll wait til the panic sinks in,
The water's rising, the pressure's building
I can't focus on anything until my heart slows
Just keep on breathing in and out
Just keep breathing, keep breathing in and out
So i'll wait til the panic sinks in,
The water's rising, the pressure's building
I can't focus on anything until my heart slows
Just keep on breathing in and out
Keep breathing, just keep breathing
Keep breathing in and out
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I watched you walk away and say i think we'll be ok
And i'll admit, i had my doubts about it
Cos words are one thing and no matter how loud i sing,
It doesn't change the way my brain thinks
I've been tyring but it won't compare,
It's hard to get excited knowing you're not there
So tell me you missed me, and i'll keep holding on
I don't do well on my own so make sure that you come home
And it's not your fault, and no-one's to blame
Just make yourself happy and i'll try and do the same
I guess you're fast asleep,
Since the unsocial hours I keep don't seem to add up to your timezone
I guess i'll stare at my phone
And hope i somehow wake you up telepathically,
Maybe you'll hear me
I wish i could sleep
I've been keeping so much under wraps,
Because i'm counting seconds until you come back
So tell me you missed me, and i'll keep holding on
I don't do well on my own so make sure that you come home
And it's not your fault, and no-one's to blame
Just make yourself happy and i'll try and do the same
It's lonely without you
I'm wasting food cooking meals for two
And I know there's more to counting the days,
But i can't count on myself for anything
I feel like i'm missing a part of my system
But i know it's just out for repair
So tell me you missed me, and i'll keep holding on
I don't do well on my own so make sure that you come home
And it's not your fault, and no-one's to blame
Just make yourself happy and i'll try and do the same
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5. |
Wake Up
04:15
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I told myself not to quit, and now i'll never hear the end of it
I can't keep up so i'll just waste another day
Cos i've been sleeping through every alarm i set
I just get up to go back to bed anyway
My brain is a mess of mangled melodies
I'm searching but i can't find the remedy
Cos i can't stop myself from falling apart
It's getting harder and harder to get out of bed and harder still to expect something new
I'm overthinking again, I'm anxious and panicked
I'm paranoid and i'm afraid
That everything's a waste of time
I think, while wasting all of mine
My brain is a mess of mangled melodies
I'm searching but i can't find the remedy
Cos i can't stop myself from falling apart
It's getting harder and harder to get out of bed and harder still to expect something new
It took a long, long time
To write down what was on my mind
I couldn't do this without you
And i don't think that i'd want to
I can't stop myself from falling apart
But i hope that you can
And I hope that you will
I can't stop myself from falling apart
But I hope that you can
And I hope that you will
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