Go Outside

by Eat Defeat

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1.
Not today - i'm kind of sick and tired of forcing a smile, And i'm sure you are too Even though I might look totally out of it, i'm not gonna put a fork in a plug socket, And i'm not gonna take a bath with a radio - just so you know. Sometimes I just wanna stay inside, Close the curtains i'm trying to hide, I'm feeling fine, I'm just not feeling up to real life. I don't feel sad today, I'm just kind of feeling ok. I'm not forcing a smile, I won't live my life in denial. Is that OK? Cos I'm OK. Is that OK? Cos i'm OK.
2.
Everything is broken, but i'm not. I'm as surprised as you i've not given up, Cos everything i had that makes me me has disappeared I've been in bed about a week, despite the fact that i can't sleep and i don't plan on getting up today So send me a message, tell me i'll be fine I'll leave it on read and reply when i've got time So send me a message, tell me not to quit You gotta get over it Everything is broken, but i'm not So let's give it another shot So let me just try to put these broken pieces back together With no guidelines whatsoever When you say that you know but refuse to let go Don't expect me to keep hanging on So send me a message, tell me i'll be fine I'll leave it on read and reply when i've got time So send me a message, tell me not to quit You gotta get over it Everything is broken, but i'm not So let's give it another shot Sometimes i wonder if it's worth constantly waiting for the worst Cos I just seem to destroy everything Everything is broken, but i'm not So let's give it another shot
3.
Panic 04:28
I think i've figured out by now There's better ways of calming down Than drinking coffee after dark, I can't hear my thoughts over my heart And I can't explain why this is happening again But i can't seem to maintain any control over my brain I can't get anything done, maybe i'll block out the sun Find things to alphabetise, inspect the bags under my eyes I'll wonder when things went wrong, dismiss things one by one I can't get anything done So i'll wait til the panic sinks in, The water's rising, the pressure's building I can't focus on anything until my heart slows Just keep on breathing in and out Let's stop and start this over And write out a list of things to do today Then use it for an aeroplane and fly right out the window I guess i'll try again another day, sink further into disarray I can't get out of my head so i'll just get back into bed With airplane mode as my friend waiting for this year to end And i should practise what i preach, but all that seems so out of reach I just can't get anything done So i'll wait til the panic sinks in, The water's rising, the pressure's building I can't focus on anything until my heart slows Just keep on breathing in and out Just keep breathing, keep breathing in and out So i'll wait til the panic sinks in, The water's rising, the pressure's building I can't focus on anything until my heart slows Just keep on breathing in and out Keep breathing, just keep breathing Keep breathing in and out
4.
I watched you walk away and say i think we'll be ok And i'll admit, i had my doubts about it Cos words are one thing and no matter how loud i sing, It doesn't change the way my brain thinks I've been tyring but it won't compare, It's hard to get excited knowing you're not there So tell me you missed me, and i'll keep holding on I don't do well on my own so make sure that you come home And it's not your fault, and no-one's to blame Just make yourself happy and i'll try and do the same I guess you're fast asleep, Since the unsocial hours I keep don't seem to add up to your timezone I guess i'll stare at my phone And hope i somehow wake you up telepathically, Maybe you'll hear me I wish i could sleep I've been keeping so much under wraps, Because i'm counting seconds until you come back So tell me you missed me, and i'll keep holding on I don't do well on my own so make sure that you come home And it's not your fault, and no-one's to blame Just make yourself happy and i'll try and do the same It's lonely without you I'm wasting food cooking meals for two And I know there's more to counting the days, But i can't count on myself for anything I feel like i'm missing a part of my system But i know it's just out for repair So tell me you missed me, and i'll keep holding on I don't do well on my own so make sure that you come home And it's not your fault, and no-one's to blame Just make yourself happy and i'll try and do the same
5.
Wake Up 04:15
I told myself not to quit, and now i'll never hear the end of it I can't keep up so i'll just waste another day Cos i've been sleeping through every alarm i set I just get up to go back to bed anyway My brain is a mess of mangled melodies I'm searching but i can't find the remedy Cos i can't stop myself from falling apart It's getting harder and harder to get out of bed and harder still to expect something new I'm overthinking again, I'm anxious and panicked I'm paranoid and i'm afraid That everything's a waste of time I think, while wasting all of mine My brain is a mess of mangled melodies I'm searching but i can't find the remedy Cos i can't stop myself from falling apart It's getting harder and harder to get out of bed and harder still to expect something new It took a long, long time To write down what was on my mind I couldn't do this without you And i don't think that i'd want to I can't stop myself from falling apart But i hope that you can And I hope that you will I can't stop myself from falling apart But I hope that you can And I hope that you will

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released March 20, 2020

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